When do you know you're truly ready to give an old love a second try? How do you know if it's even the right thing to do? People say, you should never go back to some whose hurt you, are they right? It sounds right, but what's right in the name of love? Why does love bring along so many damn questions?
It may sound idiotic; you're heart was broke, why go back to the one that caused that?
But I can't hold myself back from love anymore. I've ended things, good things, with guys so many times out of pure terrifying fear of getting hurt. I always play the same old game, hurt him before he hurts me - or hurt myself by numbing my feelings for him until the next guys comes around, and then the cycle continues. But, there's something about this guy.
There was something in the way his eyes watched me, something in the way his hands held me, and something about him I haven't been able to let go of six months later.
There was some kind of love there, the stereotypical-undescribable-safe-and-comfortable kind of love. The kind of love I read in books and see in movies, the kind of love that cynics don't believe in. Or, at least, the beginning of that kind of love. There's something in my gut shouting at me that there's something there.
I've had my gut tell me to leave too many times; it senses he's not a genuine guy, he'll be a cheater, he's just not my type, he's too this or too that, he's too sweet to be true, he's too perfect to be true... but never with this guy. My gut told me, continuously, not to give up. My gut told me to love.
So how do I know if it's okay to go back to a guy that once broke my heart? How do I know if it's the right thing to do? Am I supposed to listen to people's advice from their own experiences, or follow my gut and experience the love (and the potential pain) for myself?